Thursday, November 26, 2009
(A)- why would i ever
why would i ever
why would i ever think of leaving you? -(A)
(A)
wait a minute baby
tell me what's up lately
i've been knowing you too long
why you hiding something
thought we was through with fronting
i can tell there's something wrong (i can tell)
how could you even think that
i wouldn't have your back
it's me and you against the world
no matter what we go through
i'ma always roll with you
i promise i'll be your girl
(A)
why would i ever
baby i'll never
cos i just wanna know how to get through
cos you put together every piece of me
baby you,
you know exactly what i need to be
so tell me
(A)
wait a minute hold up
they said when you rolled up
you was yelling off the chain
you're mad when i can't make time
should of known that i'm on my grind
baby know it's all on your brain
now we've been through some problems
trust me we can solve them
we got too much in it to lose (so much in it)
you've always been my best friend
stop placing your bets when
baby i'm not leaving you (i'm not leaving you)
(A)
why would i ever
baby i'll never
cos i just wanna know how to get through
cos you put together every piece of me
baby you, you know exactly what i need to be
so tell me
tell me why... did you ever question
(question everything we spend on)
between us (we got that)
have you seen us (we got that)
we got that love
(A)
why would i ever
baby i'll never
cos i just wanna know how to get through
cos you put together every piece of me
baby you, you know exactly what i need to be
so tell me
(A)
i'm not leaving you, no i'm not leaving you
i won't leave you in the cold, in the cold
i'm not leaving you, i'm not leaving you
baby i know i love you
(A)
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 9:21 PM
Ever thine...
Ever mine...
Ever mine...
Ever ours.
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 12:36 AM
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
First stage's halfway complete.
Work's been fine.
It'd be December next week.
I have a month left with them and they mentioned something about having dinner together during my last week.
Looking forward to it and yet at the same time, dreading it.
Just finished helping mum out for tomorrow's Hari Raya Haji preparation. Had to cut up cloves of garlic and onions. No wonder she wanted me home immediately.
Having the flu and fever keeps coming and going. I think I just need lots of sleep and rest.
Especially for tomorrow.
Another full day at work, what with both Kakcik and Kak Faridah going on leave.
-_-"
G'night, people.
I want NiSab's chocopots. Make some for me, can?
;)
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 9:04 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Some of my colleagues have been asking me when I'm getting married. Some asked why I didn't get engaged. Some of my friends, or rather yet, acquaintances thought we've been together for several years when it's only been about 1 year and 5 months.
Even one of my munchkins and I talked about this issue. And to top it off, a few of my friends/ acquaintances have gotten engaged/ married or even have started a family. Don't get me wrong. These are not shotgun marriages. Some of them were engaged when they were 17+, and got married at 21, etc.
Facebook, too, doesn't help when pictures of weddings were published. Friends with their partners in all the glamour of their marriage. Obviously, it's not all good. There are downs to every ups in order to appreciate the good things in life. But we all know they'd go through it together, through thick and thin, till death do they part (cliche', I know).
Why am I not one of them?
Because they may be ready in every aspect, financially and all. For me, I know I'm not and neither is he. Sure, we get our moments of wistfully wishing for that. In Singapore, you need more than just love. You need security. And I thank god that as much as we wish for our future dream to be a reality now, I'm glad we have enough sense to know that we're not ready for that.
Still, that doesn't stop us from planning and working on it now.
;)
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 8:13 PM
Monday, November 23, 2009
Tempted, but not going to.
As long as I'm sane and content, I shall not resort to doing that. Or else, I'd be going against what I believe in and preached about to others.
So yeah, that's as far as I can go.
=)
Shall take your word for it and live it up. Don't regret. That's all I ask of you.
On to another note:
Muffin man's booking out early due to Hari Raya Haji!
;p
Anyway, I was reading my old posts (again), and I saw these two song lyrics.
The Used - I Caught Fire and
Relient K - I Need You.
I used to really love these two songs but I forgot about it after a period of time. Now I'm back to loving them. Look it up on YouTube or something and listen to it. It's nice.
=)
Tired... Going to bed early tonight.
Just talked to Muffin man for abit and he's knocked out now, miserably tough day for him.
Poor darling...
Endure just abit more... I know you can do it.
=)
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 11:43 PM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Sometimes it takes others to realize some stuff. At times, it takes events. Others, it takes the absence of one.
Muffin man had his guard duty on Saturday. So when he came back this morning, the first thing he did was to go home straight, freshen up and meet me. As tired as he was, he still did it. Which was why it didn't bother me much that we wouldn't be talking on the phone tonight. In fact, I think I'll just give him a call to wish him goodnight, and hear his voice to last until the next night for me to hear his voice again.
Okay, so when I started blogging again, it's all mushy. Screw it. I can't help it. The moment I met him, I couldn't wait to hug him. The moment he's away from me, I couldn't let him go. And the moment he left, I count the seconds until I'd see him again.
I'll admit that I have it easier than Nisa does. But telling myself to think positive doesn't diminish the feeling of missing him, needing him with me to hug me tight instead of just telling me over the phone that things are going to be okay. Technically, that's all he can do at the moment. At least... until we meet again.
You, my dear darling heart, keep me sane.
I hear my favourite sound in the world, your voice, your laughter... And things look bright enough for me. As quoted: No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end.
Well... I say, it doesn't have to be if you don't let it.
Officially, we've been together for 15 months and 22 days. Unofficially, we've known each other close to 20 months. It's too easy to be myself around you. You once told me I took your heart. In actual fact, muffin man, you took captive of mine.
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 9:43 PM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Nisa finally posted up an entry which I've been waiting for...
Hahahahaha... It's a sweet entry. Really.
She read it out to me about a week ago, so last night it was finally posted.
Anyway, it's from Bob Marley.
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters?
She's not perfect; you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.
She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break: her heart.
So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give.
Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.
Something to think about. The first time Nina read it to me, it kinda gave me an age-old sigh from deep inside.
It's been a week of chaos, from work and outside of work.
But when Friday came by, I went to Boon Lay and went back to the east with Muffin man, Fauzi and Salihin. Fauzi told me something that surprised me. I know muffin man and I miss each other. What I didn't know and surprised me was that he showed it in camp, looking at my pictures and all, to the point that some noticed him doing that.
Nina just finished her exams, insya'Allah she'll do well.
Faith just started, good luck!
Taro's starting to continue her driving.
=)
As for me, on a job hunt while I'm still at NEWater. Hopefully I could land on a permanent job which is government-based.
I need to get a permanent job so that at least I'd have a start on the plan that muffin man and I made.
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 9:59 PM
Met him for a movie last night, then he had to go off early this morning back to camp. Stupid guard duty. Meeting him for a while tomorrow when he 'books out' again. Just for a while. Because he has to book in again tomorrow as well.
Stupid guard duty.
Tomorrow's PUB's Family Day at Sentosa.
Dunoe if I'm going or not...
Flux affects everything.
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 4:27 PM
Friday, November 20, 2009
A Christmas Carol...
My first ever movie at 9.35pm (without my family) with my parents acknowledgement. Hahahahaha... Pathetic, 21 already.
=p
Can't wait.
Surprisingly, there weren't any other bookings made for this movie tonight when I did the booking. Hmmm... So hopefully we'd be the only ones. Ahahaha!
If you're late, you owe me a Coke Slurpee.
;p
* Heartbreaks are inhuman *
I live each and every day the way it is... 10:29 AM
